Do you compare yourself to what other Christians are doing for God? To God, it’s not about how much you’ve done that matters, but whether you’ve said “yes”.
People are like mirrors. We look at them and see ourselves in what we see reflected back, but this will always fall infinitely short of how God sees us.
We like the idea of grace, love, and forgiveness, but not the idea of having to fight. Maybe because we have the wrong idea of what the fight of faith is all about.